Trying to Find That Silver Lining

Its not the summer I planned on having. My garden has bombed, and Goran is working the inconsistent rotating shifts. There is mounds and mounds of work around here needing to be done, which I often find I am doing with my 4 littles 'helping', while Goran is working the opposite shift. We've managed one camping trip together, but I've gone camping on my own with all 4 kids twice as well, and I'm feeling disconnected from friends it seems I left behind when we moved. Things with family only seems to get more complicated, and although I try so hard, it seems I'm loosing out and the one hurting.

I'm trying. I'm looking. For the silver lining. Its hard to find.

I watch the babies splash in the pool, and call for me to watch as they try new things, different things, and learn. Diving under water, happily jumping in, and floating on their backs. I even join them on occasion...as the baby luvs the water as much as the rest of them

 

I enjoy a birthday dinner with my very bestest friend, with the only bowl of fresh snow peas my garden has given us.

I snuggle the baby in and nurse her to sleep while she still lets me. Its not often anymore, as she knows the world around her is for the taking.

and whats better then nursing your baby at the park? doing it with your best friend :)

 And camping. They luv it all. Sleeping in the trailer, smores around the campfire, and afternoons on the beach.

 

 

this - my dad 'swimming' is a big thing. I think he did it just to play with the kids, as they has asked him. Makes my heart melt! So glad I captured this!!

There's the last bit of our lives in a nutshell. Every now and then, there is this sliver of silver lining, and then it slips away again. I'm gonna keep looking, and keep luving my babies, and the ones who luv me.