Maybe it was the start of it? Valentines surprises for everyone when they got to the table? Maybe the routine and vigor I stirred up? Maybe because my cold is finally losing the battle and my head has stopped bounding, and I can think clearly for the 1st time in a week....
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| she wanted crackers soooo bad!! |
Last year....o, last year.....I was sad. Goran had thought maybe we were to old, or maybe I didn't care. He feels its such a gimmick to get people to buy....so....he did nothing. I was upset and hurt. It brought back those days in high school, the other girls with flowers, and chocolates, and teddy bears...and I was empty handed. I didn't have anyone to share the Valentines traditions with, and it hurt.
So now I do. And last year I was hurt all over again. Yes, yes, I know. Your thinking, "How many boxes of chocolates or roses, that die anyways, does she need?" It's not that. Its not the flowers, its not the roses, or teddy bears, or even the gifts! Its being thought of, and being treated a little bit extra special, because someone luvs me THAT much. To marry me, have babies with me, put up with me, share their life with me and promise to do this till the day I die.
But today, today was different. He thought of me!! Getting up this morning, tired and groggy, stretching into my exercise clothes, I slipped quietly down the stairs so not to wake the baby. I spied the table out of the corner of my eye to make sure the kids surprises were there. I slowed and stopped. A pink envelope was at my spot.
I'm a sap. A complete and udder sap. My eyes pooled with tears, and the biggest grin every spread across my face. I slip into my chair to read my card and just felt the rush of emotions. He thought of me. He took a moment in the last few days to think of me, pick it up, and even left it on the table. That is all it took, and he made my day.
I hope that someone makes you feel special today!
