Friday, February 25, 2011

Mr Skeleton


"Its not Bryan, my name is Mr. Skeleton," Bryan told me earlier today.

My quest to not forget, so I'm jotting it down. I want to hang onto all these moments, cute, sweet, funny, things they say now, and remember them forever.

He has this great Halloween shirt, that glows in the dark. He loves it. Doesn't realize its just meant for Halloween, and wears it as soon as it is out of the laundry (he has tried getting it dirty out of the wash and wearing it...telling me it was really 'clean'). A few weeks ago we were at a friends house and her son (a year and 1/2 older then Bryan) has scary glow in the dark pirate skeleton costume. He was putting it on, Bryan watching thinking it was very fun. It came to the mask part (frightening for me) and when he put it on, Bryan covered his face with his hands and stepped back, frightened. "No," he said hesitating, almost whispering. "Take it off."

I was happy for a moment. Oh, my son doesn't like it, good, I thought to myself. Scary skeleton costumes are not something I will have to deal with for Halloween.

The older boy took it off, reveling himself, and letting Bryan see it was him. I reassured Bryan as well, telling him it was still Johny under there, it was just as mask.

Well that did it. Bryan's fear turned to excitement and laughter, and shortly my son was the one running around with a scary, glow in the dark skeleton mask on!!

And now, Mr Skeleton lives in my house, not my sweet little Bryan.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Familiar Theme



There is a familiar theme to my blog these days. Well I guess its in my mind, so that is what comes out. Time goes by too fast!!

My baby, the first one I pushed into this world, is 7 years old!!!! How did that happen?

My 2nd child, my first homebirthed baby, is 5 years old!!! What the heck?

My 3rd child, my first son is 3 years old!!! Where did the last 3 years go?

My 4th child, my 3rd girl, truly my baby right now turns 9 months old today!! Honest, I don't know where the last 9 months have gone. She has gone from a new born to a scotching, babbling, screeching baby in what seems like over night.

I beg God to slow down time. To let me enjoy them just a bit more. I try to remember, in the times of complete frustration, its going to pass. It will be over in seconds.

Time keeps marching on.



Klara, my sweet tiny girl is 9 months today. All the frustrations and anxiety surrounding her birth, her position in my womb, forgotten - almost :) The first days, of snoozing and holding, and nursing, ingrained in my memory. My baby carried in the sling constantly beside my heart. Summer of long walks, reading "Little House On The Parie" to the 'big kids' and nursing my infant in the shade. Camping, and beach days, and evenings spent picking fresh veggies from the garden. All with Klara slung tight against me. And then the leaves were turning colors and I was packing up the house, and labeling boxes. Picking out light fixtures and paint for the new house. Still my baby was against me. Then we were moved and preparing for Christmas. The floor was finished over a few weeks, and the tree was up, beautifully decorated with help from the 3 'big kids'. Still I carried my baby often throughout the day. Quick shopping trips, and walks in the snow. Early morning vacuum, and evening dishes, she loved being close. Suddenly I was taking down the tree and purging the house, and January was fading, Valentines Day approaching but wait.....whats happening....my baby is moving...she complains now when slung or carried...she wants down...

I was sad. And I was happy. I was happy for her. She had figured out something new, and was proud. She was content to play, move around the main floor getting into the garbage, attacking the broom, but never reaching the cats in time. Her confidence is building and she is learning and growing. But it seemed in her growing I had lost something. My sling baby wanted down. That went on for over a week.

But this past week, she seemed trouble. She didn't want to nurse, she didn't want to play, she wanted up, but didn't want to sit......I threw her in the ergo for dishes one night. She was quiet. She snuggled against my back. She was asleep before I was done. A few more times this week, she has been the same. Unsettled. Anxious. A walk around the block in the sling, or sink full of dishes in the ergo settles her again. Sometimes she relaxes against me, listens to my heart and voice, and drifts to sleep. Sometimes she plays peek-a-boo with Daddy. Sometimes she chatters to the big kids as they pass her toys and tickle her toes. And sometimes she tries to stretch around me to see what I am doing.

I'll take it! This fleeting piece of her babyhood. I will take what I can get. As I've said so many times before, time is flying by. All too soon the sling and ergo will hang on hooks covered in dust....and a little girls laughter will float threw the window as she chases her sibling around the yard.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Always

There is always dishes on my counter.

There is always toys scattered across the floor.

There is always clothes in the washer, and the drier, and needing to be folded.

There is always someone who 'says' they are hungry.

There is always phone calls to return, and emails to respond too.

But.....

....there is always a smile on my face.


There is always healthy food for hungry tummies.

There is always soft snowy bubbles in the sink...and little hands reaching for them....

There is always fresh crisp clothes to stretch out in.

There is always friends coming through the door.

There is always the happy chatter of the baby amongst those toys.


There is always laughter.


Our home is full of good things. Laughter, joy, learning, and love. Life!

Always. I couldn't ask for more.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

February

Its February. Its cold. The days are short. Vitamin D is low for everyone. I'm tired. The days seem long. We are stuck indoor most days, as it is often below -10C. It seems we do the same thing day after day.

But something is changing.

I can feel the warmth of the sun. Suddenly I noticed its light a bit longer. Its not quit as cold as was. We get outside a few times a week and the kids run and play on the side walk, crunching ice, and jumping in icy cold puddles. The sun feels good on my face. I open the big wooden door for a bit and let the sun shine pour through the front door in the afternoon.

Spring is coming. In its soft slow way, the earth is warming, the birds are coming back, and spring is coming. Rubber boots, light jackets, Easter eggs hunts, and baby animals. New things to learn, freshness for everyone.

I am so thankful I can see the signs that spring is coming :)

Friday, December 3, 2010

Happy 3rd Bithday BRYAN!!



Happy Birthday To my Son

Who couldn't be loved more.

You are loved for:


The little boy you are,

...The man you will grow to be,

And the precious son you will always are.


I luv you Bryan. You are part of me. You always will be :) Hope you have the best day of all!


Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Birthday Angelina




Dearest Angelina

Happy Birthday my sweet girl! 7! Today you are 7 years old! I am so so proud of the 7 you are! You are sweet and kind. Thinking of others before yourself, and being so quick to help. Whether it is to share a toy, help mama with the baby, help Grace with her school work or help Bryan brush his teeth, you a an amazing helper!!
We started a new journey this school year. We began homeschooling. As much as there is for you to learn, there is as much for me to learn. As we figure out the balance of book learning, to social learning, to self taught, to mama lead, I see you are learning! We are doing it, you and I! You can do things you couldn't back in September. You can add with a remainder, and your spelling is coming quicker the I can believe! It seems every time I turn around you are spelling a new word, or asking questions I don't know the answers too!
I also see a sensitive young girl emerging. You listen quietly to what is being said around you, and are quick to pick up on someone's sadness. Giving a hug, or offering an encouraging smile. You also quick to pick up on a light hearten mood, saying silly things to make others laugh, and giggling a long. You also seem to pick up a air of secret, and whenever you do, that sly smile slides over your face....and I reminded that you are a very smart little girl.

Some exciting things happened this year. You became a big sister again! And you show mommy all over again what a big girl you are. From Klara's first day you have wanted to help. Sing to Klara, rock Klara, and bounce her around. She looks up to you and trusts you so much :)
We also moved. You were nervous and a bit uneasy about moving away from our street. You talked to me about your fears and your desire to visit your friends. We went back for Halloween and you trick or treated up and down the familiar street and saw your friends.
In the new house you and Grace share a room 'downstairs'. You have been a big girl, enjoying the space and helping Grace adjust to being a bit further away from mommy and daddy. I see more and more what good friends you and Grace are becoming. I see the 2 of you are building a friendship that I hope lasts for your whole lives. Please remember Angelina, friends will come and go, but Grace will always be your sister, and she will always love you.

So on your birthday, we visit Boca for lunch and celebrate, and after wards your cousin Abby and friend Isley come for supper. We will sing for you, and hug you and kiss you extra. You will get a special 'birthday' gift, and brownie cake for dessert. We will celebrate you!! Rachel is coming on Saturday, and we will celebrate again with cupcakes, and the Santa Clause parade!

It is to celebrate you, my sweet sweet girl! All the wonderful you are and the joy give to us, just by being you. We celebrate the last 7 years we have had you, and for the years to come.

Happy Birthday Angelina.

I love you.

Love Mommy

Monday, November 22, 2010

Inspired

I was in inspired to write something. Just to let the blogging world know I'm alive and well. Well for anyone who reads it. The family grows, we have moved, and prepare for a 1st Christmas with our baby girl, and in a new house.

I will get to it.

Tomorrow.

Turns into today.

And still no time.

Life goes on. Rushing past. Children sitting, talking, spelling, writing, adding, growing.

Mom and Dad struggle with life's questions. Bad choices people make effecting us all to such huge extremes. Trying to figure out what is right for us, were we stand, how to make everyone happy, and still do what is right for us.

Some way we find away, smile and kiss, and the children run around happy. A happy home is all they need.

Replace an old floor, fix a leaky roof, gain a room, plans for painting...some day soon :) But later, because time is short and they are growing fast....


I am blessed!!